How to do it ALL…

I have NO idea, but I am open for suggestions…..I have six children, and countless spiritual children, a girls’ bible study, a home church, an intense international traveling schedule, and a really hot and relatively high maintenance husband. On any given week I have fourteen football practices, four football games, three taekwondo practices, and 4 dance classes. As well as an average of 2 to 4 houseguests, and sometimes 12 or 14! I change the sheets on seven beds, and do an average of twenty loads of laundry, and wipe disgusting things off of sinks and toilets. I cook a home cooked meal EVERY night, except Sundays, I am taking the Sabbath very literally these days! I visit Wal-Mart no less than 4 or five times a week, and strangely, someone will still leave me a note about something they absolutely HAVE to have by tomorrow or their academic or social life (if not both) will come to an end. I read and comment on hundreds of blogs and emails from past, present and future World Racers and kids all over the world. I have friends, family and projects in Africa that keep me awake at night. I workout 6 days a week, and run tons of miles and lift obscene amounts of weight by weeks end. It takes me at LEAST an hour to pray for all my children, it takes DAYS to pray for Gary (high-maintenance, but so worth it!) I have to prepare teachings, and continue to write. I try to spend time with each child individually, and look sexy for dates with my husband. I have parents and in-laws that are wonderful people and make no demands, and are in many ways neglected by me; yet never make me feel bad. Every night before I turn off my lamp ( or 1 or 2 in the morning most of the time) I make myself a to-do list for the next day, every morning I look at it and think ARE YOU KIDDING ME!

Meanwhile, I have young wives watching me, living with me, and studying me. I have many young women observing my life, at a very close range. I spend hours with the next generation everyday, whether it is my children’s’ friends or kids that we are mentoring or counseling, I am being watched. Everyday I fail, everyday I let someone down because I can’t give them the time or energy they need from me. I do not do it all perfect, but I have no intention of changing any of it right now. I love my life, I love my family, I love my marriage. I have my share of critics, and I bless them and move on. (don’t have time to worry about that, I have to pray while I am folding laundry!)

I have a great deal to learn, and no doubt I could do and be better in every area of my life. I KNOW there are areas where I need more brokenness, more depth, and more humility. I could be a better mother, a better wife, a better daughter and friend. I don’t have all the answers, I don’t have it all figured out, and there is NO ONE that knows me intimately and would describe me as “perfect”…..but hopefully, I am described as REAL. With all my stuff, my scars, my failures, and a few accomplishments….all I really want to be is real, to be true, to have grace and bring the Kingdom in my own rushed and crazy way…..

My list for tomorrow, “do what is mine to do!” That’s all, nothing less, nothing more…and that is good enough for now!